I Don’t Have the Courage to See My Unconscious Mother-in-Law; Am I Being Heartless?

I’m a civil servant in my late 40’s. Three months ago, my mother-in-law, who is in her 70s, collapsed from a subarachnoid hemorrhage. She underwent emergency surgery but has not yet regained consciousness. My in-laws’ house is a two-hour drive from our home. It’s a distance that is difficult to travel frequently. My husband makes the trip once a week and, along with his father, has organized his mother’s surgery and hospitalization. It has been decided that she will be admitted to a facility. But my mother-in-law is still unconscious and has received gastric bypass surgery in the meantime.